This week has been the weirdest week so far. I can only liken it to the calm before a storm. Except it’s not been calm because I’m still ill so I’m frustrated. But writing-wise it’s calm. I’m working on the short films simultaneously. I’m not sure if that’s better or worse than focusing on them individually but it’s definitely working with my current state of mind. It’s not that I’m bored… per se… but almost like I just want the shorts to be done so that I can really focus on the feature.
I know they say that you’re not supposed to pick favourites with your children and I don’t know if this applies to story babies or not… But I miss Rhea and Tiffin and I want to work with them again! They’re my favourite.
I had to prepare a presentation this week too. I know that public speaking and verbal storytelling are the things I need to work on more than anything. It doesn’t help that my brain was shouting at me, my kidneys hurt, I couldn’t hear anything out of my left ear and my body was having real issues regulating my temperature… (If anyone knows what’s wrong with me right now I’d really appreciate also knowing…)
Anyway, public speaking is not my thing especially when it includes sharing a story that I brained up to a group of people who’ve been stuck in a windowless prison all day. Not an ideal scenario.
I tend to forget how to breathe and I do weird pacing or rocking back and forth. I never know where to look so I act like a maniac with eyes that just kind of dart around. And when I’m reading from a script (which is what I was doing this time) my brain edits the words as I’m saying them so I sound like I can’t read. It just doesn’t work. It’s like every part of my body is trying to find its own way to escape the current situation. It’s really frustrating. Especially when I can feel it happening. But I got through it. And the script was probably well-received. I can’t really remember because I was internally yelling “GET ME OFF THIS STAGE.”
So the plan for Week 10 because it’s Week 10 now! Shit it’s Week 10! I actually just got a little bit sad.
I’ve gotta finish a draft of these shorts and I’m going to do an edit of the feature before my session on Thursday. Lots to do! Here’s to another week of pretending that I’m not being taken over by some weird illness! Whoop!
But one of my favourite things about being a writer is that if I feel like shit I can work from bed. Which I do. So I am.
Thanks for Reading!