Food

Today was almost a failed day. I have a turbulent relationship with depression which I’m able to keep under control most days today was not one of those days.

It was annoying (depression, that is) because I’d planned a really nice day and then forced myself to go through with it.

In another post another time I’ll talk in detail about the ways I cope with depression but for now I’ll just say that food is a really big factor for me. I find that if I plan my day around food and drinks I’m able to go through with it with the minimal amount of agonizing and crippling mental torment.

So today and witout pictures because I ruined my phone, I shall list my food.

• Coffee in the morning, always.
• Soup and half a baguette at the Swanpool beach café. Soup by the sea on a sunny winter’s day is a great, great thing.
• More coffee at Espressini.
• A bag of dark chocolate christmas coins whilst on a Skype date with my best friend who’s living too far away.
• The other half of a baguette
• Homemade experimental mint and pea risotto with sad parsley.
• A triangle of Toblerone whilst making a cute cottage for a green-fingered secret agent on Sims 4.
• And now before bed, a mug of mint tea…

I’m not listing food because it’s healthy or balanced or anything. I’m not under the illusion that I am a health guru here to solve ailments with my magical food. What I’m hoping is that if you’re like me and you sometimes find days hard simple things can help. Things that you love can help you through and for me that can be moments with food.

A cup of coffee is a routine. Soup on the beach is a moment. Chocolate coins are time with a special friend. Experimental risotto is an achievement.

I may have had a shit day but I also had a day with small bits of goodness. I must remember those. We must remember those.

Does that make sense? I don’t know.